...And after several days of sleep disruption capped by a night of Rumbling Innards that meant not getting to bed until 3am, I still wake up at 6:30 for no good reason, and then the cats wake me again at 8:30 with their piteous cries once I do manage to drop back off. Then add to that the part where what sleep I am getting is disrupted by weird nightmares that aren't exactly horror-movie stuff as such, just murky symbolism of ongoing emotional threat-response Issues doubtless relating to the stress of the waking life. And this when the computer isn't even broken-to-the-point-of-actually-in-the-shop...
I think this all points towards New Year's Resolution = "find a damn income channel so you could at least relax about fixing/replacing the Mac if it comes to it again", since I'm demonstrably so traumatized by last May's episode and what I had to go through to bail Gareth-that-was-Gaius out of the shop for it that I can't even settle my brain down enough to work on the personal projects that I engage in to take my mind off the rest of my glaring Life Issues. But how to do that in this economy, when I've not even got the formal qualifications for most people's last-ditch "...you want fries with that?" Crap Jobs and everything else that I can think of to do is dependent upon the computer not going BOOM... {sighs, scratching head}
(A common thread the last time I was moaning seemed to be "volunteering", BTW -- anyone have more concrete suggestions along those lines of how to make connections to that? I am really at the point where I can't organize my way out of a paper bag so far as Thinking About My Life goes...)
I think this all points towards New Year's Resolution = "find a damn income channel so you could at least relax about fixing/replacing the Mac if it comes to it again", since I'm demonstrably so traumatized by last May's episode and what I had to go through to bail Gareth-that-was-Gaius out of the shop for it that I can't even settle my brain down enough to work on the personal projects that I engage in to take my mind off the rest of my glaring Life Issues. But how to do that in this economy, when I've not even got the formal qualifications for most people's last-ditch "...you want fries with that?" Crap Jobs and everything else that I can think of to do is dependent upon the computer not going BOOM... {sighs, scratching head}
(A common thread the last time I was moaning seemed to be "volunteering", BTW -- anyone have more concrete suggestions along those lines of how to make connections to that? I am really at the point where I can't organize my way out of a paper bag so far as Thinking About My Life goes...)
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